Bismillah.
Evrybody, i mean mostly, must be sleeping now. ok, I cant sleep. im having big grande iced coffee latte few hours ago at manhattan fish market, guess Im all awake now. So, I was thinking to continue stay up,, perhaps for a study but... wait, today's neurology class says sleeping is actually a learning process, means, a person who didn't sleep, may face "tingtong" phase later in the morning. Alamak. *facepalm. okay, tutup buku.
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No way, Im done making my hot choc. how can i waste that?
by the way. Im having quite hectic days recently, 2 skill lab exams plus one integration exam plus pbl 2nd and 3rd with everyday packed with classes. ALL IN A WEEK. and im not complaining, dont get wrong. for at least, i felt the week went by a lot faster. My latest pbl case discussed about febrile seizure in children. Dr says, ok not only he but all studies say the prognosis was very good even though, it was one of the most happening disorders in children. buutt,, i havent seen this case before btw, so Im all curious, on how it looks like, how the mother esp their ways to handle their child with convulsion. It's not easy mann, go and youtube tonic clonic seizures in child, as if i am the mother, I will be panic as well. =.="
That's first. Secondly. err, I am realizing errmm.. that my.. haiya. actually, I wanna say that my handwriting goes very ugly now. I cant even understand my own handwriting now, ok, only for certain words. 'r' looks like 'n', et cetera. Pls fix it hani. :/
*there you go for all twelve cranial nerves!! heee ;D
Thirdly,
I can tell myself now goes very suam suam kuku when in terms of feeling. tooo many stressors plus weakened hani equal to -- i am all tingtong now. Means, if u look all beyond my smiling faces, u can actually see those worried and sadface behind everything. no doubt. you see, Do u know why is it important to be thankful to Allah, for every nikmat? for every sadness as well? for every tests been given to us? Is to let ourselves remember the Creator. Random and often things said by US. nampak macam biasa je bila cakap pasal kita kena selalu ingat Allah. but do we really do what exactly we said? SubhanAllah, beautiful reminders are everywhere, it's all the matter of us to let ourselves consciously realize what they are. To be honest, I am having a hard time now. Definitely feels lonely, undoubtedly say. That is totally not something I supposed myself to think, when actually He always there for me. Isn't it? We know but we forgot easily. We know but we didn't do. No matter how big the problem is, He creates tests for us, He knows the solutions, clearly seen, why do we seek for something else when actually seek for His guidance is the best to do. Admittedly, as human, we did mistakes. ain't us? So, improve.
huarrrghh, I wrote too much already. haha btw, I'M GOOD. such feeling, such thoughts weren't something uncommonly happens to me. I just need to? Yes, face it, overcome it, or adapt it very well, perhaps. :')
Goodnight ppl! :D Im sleepy now. hehe.
thanks for reading,
wassalam.
p/s : I miss you home, I miss you family, I miss u friends. For all wrongdoings happened, I humbly apologize. :'D
