Some Nights.

Bismillah. 


Hello blog. It's midnight and I haven't get myself zzz-ing yet, facing off this monitor, the bed is just not tempting tonight the way it usually does. Having a break for the past three days guess I get myself sufficient amount of sleep already. Is it? So not meeee, haha!


*cranky-mode activated*



by the way,



Staying up in the middle of the night? Well, most people probably do esp the youngsters out there, not excluding myself-lah of course, why wouldn't I, right? heh. The calm and breezy night atmosphere always, indeed, just a perfect time for-multitaskin' myself with this and that, like there is no time to do it during the day kan. Haaa. Like now, I'm back writing. Here. I'm actually planning to write since yesterday, but I got messed up with the blogger new home-settings(since I haven't been here for ages) so I put my intention away. When today I managed to finally changed my background instead of the previous color-blocking-orange all over the page into a gypsy-styled one. And yes, for the header image too. So how was it? :P <--- ignore this.



Back to the main topic. 



Simply said, I often stays during the night when I got freaking thick module to be studied, and yes with the aid of a glass of mild coffee. I'm pretty sure others would have done the same, when exam is about to arrive, like the next day? haha yes, last minute preparation like that. For other reasons? Wallahualam. Let's stay in a positive-side thinking. Why? Positive-thinking always helps. Negative one, kills every thoughts. Because why? For every single thing that we did was basically with intentions inside, with exceptions but I cant really remember what the exceptions are. All in all, my point here is we have to be careful with what we are thinking of others. Why? Cause somehow their link with the Almighty could be much stronger than ours. Basically, only He knows what actually we were thinking on the inside. 

*pic taken at Central Park's garden :)

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"And He it is Who makes night a covering for you, and sleep as repose, and makes the day a resurrection"

{Al Furqan, 25:47}

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"It is out of His Mercy that He has made for you Night and Day,- that you may rest therein, and that you may seek of his Grace;- and in order that you may be grateful."

{Al Qasas, 28:73}

These verses reminded myself to be more productive during the day. InshaAllah. But there is ways to actually be more productive during the night, when everyone's having their beauty sleep, and some are performing night-solat. That's why every thoughts came out of what others actually doing are indeed important, for what they're doing might not suits what we actually thinking of. 

It is such a blessing for us to have precious Al-Quran as our primary source of reference. Such a complement for us to think and reflect to ourselves. The fact that we actually know but we failed to practically do it. Why?

Wallahualam, May the Almighty guides us always.

tq :)

Wandering eye and Heaviness in my Head

Bismillah.

It's been a while now. You know, it'd be an obvious lie if we said, we never felt it before. Wait, perhaps no. Maybe it's only me. Dergh, Conflict! innermost part, shooosh and go away my most hatred thing in the world, syaiton. =.="

Looking back at the bee, I wish I can someday be like him. Fly freely.

Because why, Loads of things thought would never be better and easier. Complicity majors them.

What's my point by the way?

It ain't cool to feel nobody around when everybody around. It is something not used to be. People conquers the world, we have nowhere to run. Wait, why we suppose to think such thing? Allah s.w.t is always there.

It's good to have someone who can run together. But It's always be better to directly seek for Allah s.w.t for the help, smoother the sailing.

"Allah tempat meminta segala sesuatu"

{Al-Ikhlas;2nd verse}

Why do we have to feel such falls when indeed God always helps throughout the journey? Think back. Think and think, from the very first time we realized that we lost in the middle of the Dunya, yet He sent someone to guide. It's a guidance, like a map showing the directions to where actually to reach the point and dig the treasures? But what happen when we lost the map? Do we still keep moving? Is it necessary to find a new map? Or perhaps stop and satisfied with the efforts so far? No, there's no vacation when in terms of seeking..

We, human. We have limitations. But those can't be the reason to fade our spirit. Are those limitations cover up the nikmat that Allah gave, up til now? Are those nikmat aren't enough for us to even move a step from today on? Back to the only path that He blessed. Think now and begin the kick-off.

Give more, Expect less. Give and give, forget all those we've given. Never regret upon giving.

Expect least from others. But Expect High in Allah s.w.t, He has no limitations, Expect high cause that, thus encourages us to pray more, we ask more upon the courage to overcome the whatsnot and to be someone worthy now and the day-after. Cause why, Dia Mahakaya ^^

Now, reflect to myself. It's good to have the map, I mean to have someone inspiring, or best I say, someone close who can always remind me bring me close to Allah. I used to, but somehow, today onward, there must be very good reasons behind on why He tests this upon me, perhaps to be a lot more self-independence, have my own stand, and run if it's necessary.

To Mr stress, Ms fear, Mr Depression, Mr Pain and Mrs Dissapointment, I guess u're defeated now. InshaAllah. But well, I guess I'm grateful to meet you, that's somehow bring me back to where I shall actually stand now.

*Source: Langit Ilahi fb

Believe and Have faith.

p/s : I know I have a fickle heart, and bitterness, wandering eye and heaviness in my head. Don't you remember? - I like this line, thanks Adele, I like the whole song, but this line adapted-well to myself. hehe :')

Relating observation, appreciation and faith strengthening.

Bismillah.

Jakarta recently undergoing it's heavy-downpour season since early January ago which I can say, it is indeed TOTALLY HEAVY, raining like everyday and sometimes boleh sampai banjir tapi tak tinggilah. Alhamdulillah, me and my friends didn't get any serious illness for at most flu and fever. Do you know such flood (especially here where so many tikus lari-lari gembira main kejar-kejar =.=") may spread serious infection like Leptospirosis? such bacteria species infect ppl by penetrating skin, unconsciously, so for me, it's advisable and may be compulsory for everybody here to have boots-even though i haven't have one as well, not those stylish one haaa btw, but the water-proof one of course, to go through those dark-water-flood-areas esp. erk. =.="

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okay end of story pasal air hitam ni.

YESTERDAY. :) I just wanna say the weather's soooo goood, *actually soooo-hawt with heaaaats all over, everywhere* (but I'm pretty sure such sunny day provides very good scenery up there) soooo eye-catching--sooo mesmerizing and so and so everything-lah and i cant stop looking at those vraiment grandes and clear blue sky with lots of lovely cotton-candy-clouds everywhere! SubhanAllahh!! sooo beautiful as if I wanna capture all those experience-ful moments and share here. ohmyyy ^^ I don't actually realized when did this developed, possibly after I bought my cam? or perhaps the moment I spent my days at Bali et Surabaya. Maybe and Maybe, but what I'm quite sure with myself is that I'm having quite strong desire looking those CLOUDS up there in the BLUE SKY. ohmyy *again. :D anyways, it was yesterday, all the way home from campus when i cant stop dongak, looking up, and terpesona until I asked myself to snap one afterwards, InsyaAllah, since I'm going out soon after to accompany piko to CL. Lucky that she reminded me, wait, insisted me (thaaaanks laling! :D) to go and get my cam as I..almost forgot. urgh and since I'm not that rajin to get myself back in and get it.

by the way, do you still remember His sentence, as mentioned in the Holy Quran, says :

"Sesungguhnya dalam penciptaan langit dan bumi,

dan pergantian malam dan siang terdapat tanda-tanda (kebesaran Allah) bagi orang yang berakal"

.::Al-Imran-{190}::.

They are so beautiful indeed ;)

*this is taken exactly in front of CL. Uni of trisakti, perhaps, tarumanegara? gulp. I'm not that sure. :D

*this one that I posted yesterday on my fb-wall, i didnt realized til someone told me this looks alotlike a heart-shape clouds. so sweeet :')

*this clouds captured during our holiday at Bali, intending to wait for a sunset, but we sort of lack of time. however, the sun and clouds, so SubhanAllah, dont you think? :'D

*wait, Im not sure where this clouds was taken, but somewhere in Bali. This hot sunny day seriously made us tanned! but, Allah s.w.t act provides the sun for us to watch this blue cloudy sky. :')

*ok, i finally got it! This placed is called Bedugul temple, where it's scenery can be found at the back of rp50k.

*annnd, this cumulus was captured on my way to surabaya across the sea (by ferry) which idk what it's called. hehe :D

*ignore the lady in the middle. I think from now on I will consider a view with clouds is compulsory. hihi. insyaAllah.^^

*annnnd this is the view of mount Bromo. again, look up the clouds. ohmy :'D

*This one taken at Surabaya. the cotton candy-like clouds looking so cute, ain't them?

"(yaitu) orang orang yang mengingat Allah sambil berdiri, duduk atau dalam keadaan berbaring, dan mereka memikirkan tentang penciptaan langit dan bumi (seraya berkata), "Ya Tuhan kami, tidaklah Engkau menciptakan semua ini sia-sia'; Mahasuci Engkau, lindungilah kami dari azab neraka"

.::Al-Imran:{191}::.

Tiada apa yang sia-sia kan? Indeed, everything is priceless.

Im gonna jump HIGHER and catch those cloudddss one dayyy!,

*amboi, tingginya harapan?*

nothing is Impossible :D

Thanks for reading!

Wassalam.

p/s : Just imagine,, how can those sky held up so steady up in the sky without any pillar to support? Just imagine, subhanAllah. Every single nerve and senses that we have, that we've learnt was actually created by Allah s.w.t to appreciate His creation and to feel His Greatness. So, be thankful, appreciate and relate those to strengthen up our faith inshaAllah.

Little Beatles.

*something random*

Do you know i often get the wrong mood at the wrong time? *thatsomeee. =.=

I got to say, I'm having quite strange desire in playing guitar,

So, last night, i managed to learned two songs, (walaupun still merangkak rangkak), of "I will be" by avril and "i'm yours" by Jason Mraz. Chords and Lyrics from Mr. Google. ngehehe.

Songs inspired by Medley that I've learned from enchek Bobo, which basically includes Stand by Me, Beautiful Girls, Baby by bieber , Love story and Im Yours. Canggih molek doh hani laa ni. grr time wastage! pang to myself.

by the wayyy again* lemme introduce you to my baby Bali. hehehe ;)

Coool, ain't she? for whatever reason aside from it's bought at Bali, IT IS WHITEE.

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and and anddd, it got hard rock cafe Bali stick-ed at the bottom of it. WOW WOW, im eksaited. like yeahuu.

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*insane =.="

(sangatlah tak berfaedah, minat orang mmg pelik pelik)

ok, Im done writing.

Self Nodded.

Bismillah.

Evrybody, i mean mostly, must be sleeping now. ok, I cant sleep. im having big grande iced coffee latte few hours ago at manhattan fish market, guess Im all awake now. So, I was thinking to continue stay up,, perhaps for a study but... wait, today's neurology class says sleeping is actually a learning process, means, a person who didn't sleep, may face "tingtong" phase later in the morning. Alamak. *facepalm. okay, tutup buku.

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No way, Im done making my hot choc. how can i waste that?

by the way. Im having quite hectic days recently, 2 skill lab exams plus one integration exam plus pbl 2nd and 3rd with everyday packed with classes. ALL IN A WEEK. and im not complaining, dont get wrong. for at least, i felt the week went by a lot faster. My latest pbl case discussed about febrile seizure in children. Dr says, ok not only he but all studies say the prognosis was very good even though, it was one of the most happening disorders in children. buutt,, i havent seen this case before btw, so Im all curious, on how it looks like, how the mother esp their ways to handle their child with convulsion. It's not easy mann, go and youtube tonic clonic seizures in child, as if i am the mother, I will be panic as well. =.="

That's first. Secondly. err, I am realizing errmm.. that my.. haiya. actually, I wanna say that my handwriting goes very ugly now. I cant even understand my own handwriting now, ok, only for certain words. 'r' looks like 'n', et cetera. Pls fix it hani. :/

*there you go for all twelve cranial nerves!! heee ;D

Thirdly,

I can tell myself now goes very suam suam kuku when in terms of feeling. tooo many stressors plus weakened hani equal to -- i am all tingtong now. Means, if u look all beyond my smiling faces, u can actually see those worried and sadface behind everything. no doubt. you see, Do u know why is it important to be thankful to Allah, for every nikmat? for every sadness as well? for every tests been given to us? Is to let ourselves remember the Creator. Random and often things said by US. nampak macam biasa je bila cakap pasal kita kena selalu ingat Allah. but do we really do what exactly we said? SubhanAllah, beautiful reminders are everywhere, it's all the matter of us to let ourselves consciously realize what they are. To be honest, I am having a hard time now. Definitely feels lonely, undoubtedly say. That is totally not something I supposed myself to think, when actually He always there for me. Isn't it? We know but we forgot easily. We know but we didn't do. No matter how big the problem is, He creates tests for us, He knows the solutions, clearly seen, why do we seek for something else when actually seek for His guidance is the best to do. Admittedly, as human, we did mistakes. ain't us? So, improve.

huarrrghh, I wrote too much already. haha btw, I'M GOOD. such feeling, such thoughts weren't something uncommonly happens to me. I just need to? Yes, face it, overcome it, or adapt it very well, perhaps. :')

Goodnight ppl! :D Im sleepy now. hehe.

thanks for reading,

wassalam.

p/s : I miss you home, I miss you family, I miss u friends. For all wrongdoings happened, I humbly apologize. :'D

Whattt am i doing?

Bismillah.

I just got myself not-too-simple dinner of sardine made by Piko n Eqin. (is it something to be written here?) haha (!) do u know that simple meal with sardine provides our body with quite substantial amount of calcium?

ok.

and now I'm sitting back at my desk doing so much updates here and there and and wait, Im stuck here =.= reading back my previous posts, guess it has been like four months without any single post. erk. wait, what am i doinggg what am i doiiiinnngggg?

im finally did this. "haniii, updatelah belogg".. hani --->"malas..=.="" but fortunately say, there you go girl, im back on my own page. haha. which i know this wont lasts long.

ppls, dont worry.

Im UPDATED.

yeeeahooo as simple as that. haha (!) the rest, u may ask others about me (ok, tak perlu pun). :p but pardon me, coz im not talented in describing myself, as weell as to answer to such questions "haniii, what's up?" - "hani, how you've been doing there?" hehe, dont get me wrong, Im not that annoyed with such questions, just you may found I'll say something that's .....err.... not actually best describes what actually happened. (thatsomeee)

ok. so tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow. it's actually a single word of tomorrow that im talking about now. I got SKILL LAB EXAM. yet im updating my blog (?) - insane me. gulp =.=". which im not even intended to write, not even have anything up in my mind of what to write about. this is totally about RANDOM. excuse me for ur waste of time. =.="

no. no. i wont let ur time wasted. soooo, by the way. have you got yr senses into this video?

What a wonderful world by Louis Armstrong

Epic! haaaa how classic I am now. haha. listen and enjoy the music and lyrics! hahaha (ok, act i cant stop laughing till now even i've listened for at least ten times?-takde keje) Enjoy it, have a gooood day everyone! :)

Till then,

Wassalam.