All focus should be on ourself .

Bismillah .

this post below , when i read back twice or even more

i sometimes never realize when did I've become so cold inside .

sungguh hebat api kemarahan itu bila di-blend kan lagi dengan hasutan yang tak pernah berguna .

bila sudah blend , sebati . apa hasilnya ?

kepuasan yang menggunung tinggi ? MasyaAllah . tipu belaka .

bertambah rasa tak senang ada la .

in fact , all what we can do is fight fight and fight , to hurt each other heart's more , to maximize the devil's satisfaction , never can be better . isn't it .

when I even read more ,

I sometimes not even realize either when did I become so poetic ,

hebat pulak berkata-kata bila marah ?

tiada gunanya bila sebenarnya kata-kata itu hanya dapat menambah sakitkan hati yang lain .

never can be better neither , isn't it .

mungkin stress , exam yang memerlukan pembacaan yang banyak ,

rushh sana sini ,

bila orang buat salah sikit pun sekejap je boleh melenting .

diri sendiri punya salah tak nampak , atau mungkin sebenarnya nampak , sengaja buat buat buta .

atau mungkin kesilapan orang lain yang berulang-ulang , sampai kita tak boleh tolerate , langsung bengang sorang sorang , emo dengan dia . padahal dia doesn't know nothing at all . plenty can possibly make sense . it's funny hein , when we can actually tegur dengan baiknya sehingga dia tahu dan modify keburukan sikit sikit sampai suatu masa hanya kebaikan yang kita nampak ? (=

share itu perlu , sebab mungkin ada anda anda juga pernah rasa macam ni .

tapi Alhamdulillah , this un-satisfaction does not lasts long . lucky me . but keep in mind ,

never giving up on practicing patience more in oneself , ber-SABAR , dan lebih bersabar lagi . (=

jadi , amma said jangan buat lagi ye thambi , as well as tanggachey too . tak baik !

hati lebih tenang , terima kaseyy , wasalam . :)

what do you expect .

YE , SY BENGANG .

saya pelik pelik dan pelik , orang punya ragam , boleh jugak ada orang macam ni ? rasa macam nak pegi jerit kuat2 , nangis macam banjir , geram sampai gigil gigil , rasa macam nak keluar semua F words tapi yang keluar hanyalah fish , fish dan fish . ok , out of mind . never can happen . sebab ? i'm pretty concern about ppl around , maybe sometimes i do have some sort of thought in mind , well yea , it never gonna happen .. yes . tapi best dan lega bila sekali sekala dapat explode kan semua . kan ?

hayy sahabat . sy sayang anda sebagai sahabat . but to trust you whole-heartedly , no i can't , and i won't , why ? i just can't . fullstop .

pernah dengar "sharing is caring" ? it rarely applies on you . nak share ilmu pun kena pilih orang kah ? think back who own's the knowledge at first side ? pernah dengar "mind your own business" ? this happened often . as if you never want a person to know what you gonna share to others , please , go and talk somewhere else . jangan la nak cakap kuat macam seribu batu jauh tapi tak nak orang lain tahu . menyampah wei .

and what is your contribution towards friendship ? hang out ? spend laughters when it's time to laugh ? but how can you spend laughters while other's crying at the corner hoping to have someone to talk to ? selfish , don't you think ? don't say saya memang macam ni , tak reti pujuk . it's your life , you yourself do what you want and you yourself chose on choices available and you yourself made who you are . may be one of the reasons why i'm not into relationship anymore . [well , i'm not referring to marriage cpls , jd jangan salah anggap . (=] some ppl willing to crack out the head on how to coax the love but somehow they forget how to appreciate ppl or should i specifically describe , friends . nak buat macam mana bila mana rasa ambil berat dah beralih ke ..... insan bernama lelaki . maka , lebih banyak masa diperlukan untuk keep in touch dengan mereka atas alasan jauh . what a huge disappointing .

penat rasa sakit hati . tapi , saya juga manusia biasa , ada hati dan perasaan . kalau lah saya ada ijazah pakar dalam menjaga hati diri sendiri . oh can't afford that , too many feees to be paid .

wah , marah sungguh hani idzaida hari ni ? semoga lebih banyakkan bersabar ok hani , think of Allah , and the unsatisfaction will soon recover and heals .

hey peeps , don't get wrong , these ppl are a few . :) plenty more are actually concern and care of their friends , that's lovely , and appreciating . :) people come and people go , and people gonna come some more , they pick a fight but it's alright . that's how life goes on .

crapps ; terima kasih . wasalam .

the 3rd homecoming

I am a honey bee ,

Fixing back the wings ,

to polish more the stripes ,

I'm heading back to my own lil hive , of a big tree .

meeting all my other darling honey bees . :)

together make our own honey ^^

Isn't that lovely ?

bismillah .

heyyo FRIDAY , the leader of all other days .

i got multiple precious things happened , so much to tell , yet so little time to write .

and today , i'm going back home . there's thing to be settled up of my big brother's .

so , may everything goes well as planned and be blessed by Allah . :)

Mama , Papa , as well as the others , I missed you guys (= ! always .

*malas nak pack up things , balik sehelai sepinggang je boleh ? hehe , jk .

till then , wasalam .

disturbed hibernate-time

while others silently watch movies ,

or some is watching their korean heroes ,

or some is watching grey's ?

while others focusing on their pbl , study

while some is out to catch up night-seeing view of Jakarta somewhere with her bestie

or some might already asleep , taking this opportunity to get some rest .

dan saya BUSY PROCRASTINATING my time , fitting up this page with new backgrounds , and new links trying to get a new look of mine's . and finally , this is the best i chose . weelll , it's quite satisfying . HAHA . isn't it ? i mean than before . this fun fun so much fuuuuun :D *suka sorang2 why ? i manage to recover some of the stress developed during the day , AT LEAST .. aite .

ok , done talking . this sleepyhead tak boleh tahan tersengguk sengguk kanan ke kiri . haaaaaaaa *ok, DIAM . -nonsense .

hey hani , how can u always forget how to manage the free time ? adoi la . masa itu emas ye shbt2 , jangan bazirkan . tengok apa jadi , pbl pun terbengkalai . padan muka

till then , wasalam .