fatigue in chasing the temporary ?

Bismillah .

Thanks to Allah for everything been given , to me as well as to others , to things been asked or not been asked , I am so much appreciate and proud to have those and will be applying the best I can . InsyaAllah . :)

Hai hai bloggie ,

How fat i am now ? haha , well done hani , cause this one pretty lady told me : "eeeee , hani dah tembam!" ROTFL ! haha last posts were all about foods , and here I am back in Jakarta so no more photos on these variety delicacies to be displayed off , So , imma put aside the topic of foods lah dulu . okay ? hee

and sooo today's my 3rd day of school since it started on Tuesday when it supposed to start on Monday like everybody else were having but Ukrida is strangely cool when it was scheduled that they're having this NY's celebration . one extra day off yaww . awesome. and yes , like is usually happen my first day best described to be the black one . black tuesday pon boleh la other than the usual monday . yaaa =,=' hehe nevermind , life sometimes wont goes like what we've already planned isn't it ? Have faith , He decides better . ;)

of my fourth homecoming , get to learn soo many things , get updates on news , people surrounds , fuh satisfying . you want to know why ? haa , see things by ourselves rather than hearing rumors posting by others , that's what I actually define satisfy here . :D

get to see , get to hold their hands , of the precious been given by Allah .

comel kan ? hee ; it's them lah my MAMA and PAPA . sumber inspirasi setiap masa pun . parents who never fails in loving their children . Alhamdulillah sihat . :D dan , as getting older day by day, semakin romantik pula mereka . awww , can i be like them too ? hee calon pon tak dak dah dream high . pigilaa takpe! I already ask mama to search one for me soon when the time comes , so now I do not need to think of LOVE lah dulu . yeahs , lucky me . haha having you both , I am on top of the world ! :D

lihat lihat , they are so cantik . tak nampak tua pun . both my nenek dan nenek belah ayah sekarang umur sudah mencecah 80 tahun . part of my aim , to get update on my grandmas' recent health condition . bukan bererti mereka sakit , tapi cukup untuk sy lihat mereka sehat , happy as they always be . not forgetting my meh , as i can see , she's getting better despite of getting thinner due to loosing of appetite . puas hati , walaupun ada sikit sakit sakit sendi tapi hebat jugak nenek dapat pegi bowling alley jadi penaung family bowling tournament . eheh!

visiting pak cik mak cik dan cazen cazen semua . haa . harus di bold di sini . sudah boleh drive ? boleh . bererti sudah besar . jadi , selain menghidupkan engine dan ke sana sini untuk berjumpa rakan-rakan , I now can drive pergi rumah mak cik pak cik on my own . yeahu . bukan maksud sy nak drive tu senang . maksud sy , bila sampai turn kita cuti walaupun mak ayah tak cuti , selain kawan kawan syok jugak kalau pergi rumah cazen . :D malu ? buat apa nak malu , mereka bukan orang lain , jadi rapat rapat kan diri , InsyaAllah one day mereka jugak yang membantu when we're in need of help . :')

One fine Wednesday morning .

Right after subuh on my progress of cleaning my stuffs after two days arriving back here , dari makanan yang berbalut kemas dengan tissue tebal dan keras , harus diletak dalam almari makanan , tudung baruu harus di-hang , baju baju harus dilipat kemas kemas dalam almari , sooo almari kena kemas dulu lah . bila satu per satu barang di keluarkan semula , mana yang pakai kena simpan elok2 nanti rosak , and mana yang tak pakai dibuang . I then grabbed on this paper bag to see what's inside , kalau tak perlu buang lah . I suddenly saw this .

TOIIINNNK , katak melompatttt!

ahhhh kidding . =,=' I actually accidentally saw these stuffs that I've been kept for quite some time . hmmm , terdiam sebentar . sungguh betul betul sudah lupa kewujudan these lovely items here .

mama t-rex and this heart-shaped box given .... yes , by my used-to be someone special .

I can see , it's written there on the box :

awh sweet bukan ? memang , itu lah kata-kata . ............ =,=' benda ni sangat comel nak buang pun tak pernah terfikir . tapi tak sangka lah pulak untuk terjumpa kembali . habis satu pagi berduka . haha , hanii hani.....

satu hamba Allah tanya ,

hani, kenapa tak buang lagi ? dekat mana sekarang menda tu ?

"........ tak nak bagitau !"

"meh sini menda tu biar aku bakar ."

"hahha ... *gelak je , tapi aku bukan jenis yang buang apa yang orang bagi . lain lah kalau kau bagi taik hidong . =,=' , tp untuk disimpan juga buat apa ? nak ingat lagi ? tak perlu kot .

this lovely friend told me : she did once watch this series from Brunei if I'm not mistaken .

"A girl who is now in love asked her good friend's opinion if she can possibly in a relationship with this guy . Then her good friend answered : 'kalau itu yang anda mau, jadi terpulanglah, sebab anda sendiri yang akan tanggung apa yang anda lakukan' So these two lovebirds get in a relationship . Kisah cinta pun bermulalah dari hari ke hari pun . But somehow , for some reasons , one day , entah macam mana , mereka putus . bergaduh mungkin . So , this young lady cries and cries heavily , tapi her good friend tak datang pujuk dan dia juga tak datang cari her own good friend . Until one day , when this young lady gets better , she comes .She points her lips , trying to tell : 'Cinta boleh hanya sekadar di mulut' She said : 'hati kita cuma ada satu , bila hati yang satu itu dah diberi kepada laki , hati yang mana lagi kita nak bagi kat Allah ? Cinta kepada si lelaki mungkin mendapat kebahagiaan dan mungkin juga dapat kesedihan dunia , tapi Cinta kepada Allah dapat pulangan dunia dan akhirat .'

terdiam . You got that point there I can see . So I really need to boost my spirit here in moving on .

Cis , barang kecil ini pon boleh tersentuh ? these small items capable of reminding him ? apekah ? haihhhs .

Yes , mungkin memang itu yang kita mahukan . kita betul2 'nak' but how far dia boleh dekatkan kita kepada-Nya , question markssssss . Sahabat ; sy hargai nasihat anda , sy yang degil . I know that .

MOVE ON ? ingat senang ke . memang lah susah , sebab itu kena berusaha , bukannya kenang kembali . boleh berusaha lebih sikit ? bolehh bolehhhhh InsyaAllah . :')

p/s : kadang-kadang kita lupa nak hargai apa yang kita ada , yang kekal , LUPA dalam mengejar someting that is temporary .

till then ; wasalam . :')