Wandering eye and Heaviness in my Head

Bismillah.

It's been a while now. You know, it'd be an obvious lie if we said, we never felt it before. Wait, perhaps no. Maybe it's only me. Dergh, Conflict! innermost part, shooosh and go away my most hatred thing in the world, syaiton. =.="

Looking back at the bee, I wish I can someday be like him. Fly freely.

Because why, Loads of things thought would never be better and easier. Complicity majors them.

What's my point by the way?

It ain't cool to feel nobody around when everybody around. It is something not used to be. People conquers the world, we have nowhere to run. Wait, why we suppose to think such thing? Allah s.w.t is always there.

It's good to have someone who can run together. But It's always be better to directly seek for Allah s.w.t for the help, smoother the sailing.

"Allah tempat meminta segala sesuatu"

{Al-Ikhlas;2nd verse}

Why do we have to feel such falls when indeed God always helps throughout the journey? Think back. Think and think, from the very first time we realized that we lost in the middle of the Dunya, yet He sent someone to guide. It's a guidance, like a map showing the directions to where actually to reach the point and dig the treasures? But what happen when we lost the map? Do we still keep moving? Is it necessary to find a new map? Or perhaps stop and satisfied with the efforts so far? No, there's no vacation when in terms of seeking..

We, human. We have limitations. But those can't be the reason to fade our spirit. Are those limitations cover up the nikmat that Allah gave, up til now? Are those nikmat aren't enough for us to even move a step from today on? Back to the only path that He blessed. Think now and begin the kick-off.

Give more, Expect less. Give and give, forget all those we've given. Never regret upon giving.

Expect least from others. But Expect High in Allah s.w.t, He has no limitations, Expect high cause that, thus encourages us to pray more, we ask more upon the courage to overcome the whatsnot and to be someone worthy now and the day-after. Cause why, Dia Mahakaya ^^

Now, reflect to myself. It's good to have the map, I mean to have someone inspiring, or best I say, someone close who can always remind me bring me close to Allah. I used to, but somehow, today onward, there must be very good reasons behind on why He tests this upon me, perhaps to be a lot more self-independence, have my own stand, and run if it's necessary.

To Mr stress, Ms fear, Mr Depression, Mr Pain and Mrs Dissapointment, I guess u're defeated now. InshaAllah. But well, I guess I'm grateful to meet you, that's somehow bring me back to where I shall actually stand now.

*Source: Langit Ilahi fb

Believe and Have faith.

p/s : I know I have a fickle heart, and bitterness, wandering eye and heaviness in my head. Don't you remember? - I like this line, thanks Adele, I like the whole song, but this line adapted-well to myself. hehe :')